Whirlwind.

On this particular day I was thrown into a very weird whirlwind of emotions for the smallest thing.

So I was working and on that particular day a relative of my ex unexpectedly came into my store.

Now seeing as his family is from denver and I hadnt seen any of them in over a year I was certainly a bit taken a back when she suddenly came into my store in Durango.

Now I loved his family and we all got along great when we were together.

But its been over a year since i've seen any of them in person and a little less than a year since I talked to him.

We went our separate ways and its hard to just cut ties. 

I mean its becoming less and less that I remember the little things.

And i'm just turning into another person.

He meant a lot to me and his family was part of that meaning.

I mean at one time I thought that some day I would be married to him and those people would be my family.

But when someone walks into your life that you genuinely liked and is attached to someone who at one time meant the world to you, its hard not to feel a rush of emotions and like you are transported back a year ago.

I tried for so long to suppress anything about the relationship and just move on that it just built up pressure and that day it was released.

You sometimes forget that other people move on too.

And it was good to hear that he was doing well.

I hadn't talked to him in quite some time so it was nice to see that he was doing fine too.

And I reconnected with him and it was just nice closure.

I was afraid to start the conversation since I thought it might bring up things I didn't want to deal with at that time.

But I did, and it was okay.

So yes, relationships are hard and scary and they never cease to have little complexities.

But they also have joy.

And it was a joy to hear he was progressing in his life, like I have been, after the break up.