Something greater

Now I don't want to get full on religious on here because that can get a bit hairy.
If you would like to know my full belief system and my weird little quirks there is a blog entitled "Take me to Church".

Go check that out.

But long story short I do believe in a higher and larger presence that sometimes has a odd way of showing us how to live.

Coincidences.
Things that just sort of happen out of the blue.
Signs.

My mom and family believe that certain things are signs or signals of something.
In the case of my mom she believes that whenever you see a hawk its her dad watching over us.
We don't kill spiders because its bad karma.
And we believe that our souls choose the bodies of families that need us most.

That is just us.
A mix of reincarnation, souls, open minded Christianity and love.

But somethings have just sort of fallen into place lately.

Today at There's No Place Like Home, one of my coworkers, Matt that works at the White Dragon Tea Room randomly came up to me and told me out of the blue that I "had a strong presence".
No prompting whatsoever. Just came up and said that.

Now for those of you that know me well know that I struggle with loving myself quite a bit.
But its become a bit less of a battle lately.
I have in fact become stronger.
My confidence in  myself and my self worth has risen.
I think in part by being confident in my solidarity and in that I have unknowingly surrounded myself with good people that genuinely care.

But strength, has never always been a quality of mine.
But just recently its grown inside of me like a small still plant of sorts.
I hold my head a bit higher than I did before.

Anyways it just seemed a bit too weird because the night before I had taken myself on a sushi date. And that was a sign of strength for me.
That I was confident enough in myself to not worry about what others were thinking about me whilst I sat alone.
I embraced my strength.



And to add to it a few hours later I reconnect after a few weeks with a beloved friend that has been going through quite the battle with cancer.
And we had a brief update and it was just so good to see how this person was doing.
They still have that fire in their eyes which was such a comfort to me to know that they are doing well.
I may have teared up a little bit when I saw that even though their appearance was changed, I could still see their old self inside. They hadn't been broken by any of this. Their strength showed through the hell they had been through.

But at that moment I found that there must be some greater force, guiding all of this.

The human body is known for being able to endure quite a bit of trauma but the resiliency of a human soul.
Mental strength is almost more impressive than physical strength.


I seriously think that with the right mentality you can accomplish anything.

So here is to you, dear reader for your inner strength.
And even though you might not believe in the possibility of a God or a higher being, just maybe dabble in it for a second.

Maybe there is something up there looking out for all of us.