Fine.

We all break.
We have times where we are not fine.
We have times when we screw up.
We have times when we are over our heads.
We have times when just cant make the right decisions.
We have times when we just do not win.

Some days I do not win.
Actually this happens a lot.
Some things just don't come to me that easily.

Love and happily ever after is one.
Saying no is another.
Grasping topics are a hit or miss.

I sometimes think I may have a slight learning disability but that could be just me thinking too much into something.
I could be perfectly fine.

But sometimes I screw up.
On the surface I usually try to portray this calm.
Like I have my life together.
I can hold it together until it gets to a certain point.
And then it just spills out and makes a mess.

Today would be one of those days when I just cannot be in the right.

I feel like a hot mess.
And today was the day when it all spilled out.

So bear with me as I try to put this all back together.

The job hunt isn't going so well and I feel like i've been lazy too long.
I need to get off my ass and do something about it.

So i'm sorry for being a flake.
And i'm sorry for not being a full on adult.

I will try and do better tomorrow.

So here is me admitting that I am not fine.
But as with all great stories, you have to hit the bottom before you can climb your way out.

I will be fine, soon.

Onward and upward, right?