On a Wednesday in a cafe...

So if you didn't know.
Begin Again by Taylor Swift is one of my all time favorite songs right now.
Or well most frequently listened to.
Some mornings that song is all I pretty much listen to.

And its been a part of my life for probably the last 10 months.

To begin again.
Start again on something new.

Freaking square one.
Which to many seems like a step in the wrong direction for your life.
Or it could be just the thing to start your life in the right direction.
To open up new doors.
To experience your power.

I think what really hit me about that song is the line
"I think its strange that you think i'm funny cause,
he never did,
I've been thinking the last 8 months,
thinking all life ever does
is break and burn and end.
but on a Wednesday in a cafe,
I watched it begin again"


The moment when you realize that you are allowed to fall in love again.
That you are ready to fall in love again.
That you find yourself falling again.

I've been fine these past almost 10 months being single.
Finding random bouts of companionship.

Maybe finding someone that has one of the magic things you missed out in your other relationship.
Finding someone special.

I cant say that I've found that magic spark yet.
Hell now that I look back i'm not sure if I was truly in love or if I was just convincing myself that what I was experiencing was love.

But I think something has turned inside of me.
A rumbling that has started to grow.

But I think this girl may be ready to finally just date.

I am young and I am ready for life to happen.

It doesn't have to be tomorrow or next week or even next year.

But i'm ready for whatever life decides to throw at me.








Also I went on a date with this lovely guy. You know that cute one that told me my cute high waisted shorts were cute and the one I texted that he was cute when I was a little tipsy?
Yeah that one.
Anyways maybe i'm getting so nostalgic and mushy is because it was a great date.
And even though nothing can come from this it was still good to just get back out and be reminded that there are nice people out there that like me too.
So thanks lovely guy for a great date.

Here's to more great dates this summer.