Abigail Alexis Cook

Today at 4:36 am, the prettiest light of all was brought into this world.
Abigail Alexis Cook was born today, March 1st 2015.
And I cannot believe it.
And I am so happy and proud for Liz and Alex.

As I was going to bed last night at like 1:30, I saw that Liz posted she was in labor.
And I hoped that when I woke up Abby would be here.
And she was.
And I couldn't believe it.
It wasn't until a few hours later that I actually got to see this beautiful face.
This child is gorgeous and i'm already in love with her.
Shes not even a day old yet and I can tell this child will be loved to the moon and back.
And I cant wait to hold her.

Is it weird that in way I feel like shes partly my responsibility.
Like i'm one of her parents too in a way.
I'm already super protective of her.
And of anybody who will break her heart or giver her a hard time.
Maybe this is just reinforcing my maternal instincts.

I know I don't want kids for a really long time, but I do want them
I'm a bit of a hot mess right now and I'm not bringing another soul into this world until I figure out myself and have a financially set life.
But I want kids somehow, whether it be by my own doing if possible or by adoption.
But I want to love a few other souls in this world and make my own family.



Liz and Alex fell in love and made Abigail.
Which is one of the prettiest names in my opinion.
Shes already Abby to all of us.

But I want to be there as much as I can for this little girl.
This year has been so good so far and she just adds so much more light to it already.

I want to be there when shes still small enough to hold her and have her hold onto my pinkie.
I want to be there when she can walk to me and I scoop her up and spin her around.
I want to dance in the rain with her.
I want to let her draw on my face with make up, make me pretty.
I want to see her smile at her wonderful reflection.
I want to dry her tears when she falls down and scrapes her knee.
I want to blow bubbles and have her chase after them.
I want to babysit her for a night so Alex and Liz can have some time to themselves and rekindle their love.
I want to snuggle that little girl and we can hang out in our mermaid tails.
I want to build a snowman with her and let her run through the leaves.
I want to take her trick or treating.
I want to be there to send her off to school.
I want to make her first valentines with her and eat half the chocolate.
I want to expose her to Disney princesses and all the magic they can bring.
I want to teach her to stand up for herself and show her that girls are just as strong as boys and should not be looked at as anything less. WE are equals.
I want to be with her for her first palm Sunday parade and help her decorate her tricycle or stroller.
I want to expose her to the crazy weirdness of what a bassoon is and making music.
I want to buy her first real school dance dress.
I want to love her and eat ice cream with her when her heart is broken. Tell her everything heals with time and the best thing is to just hold your head high.
I want to judge and grill her first significant other.
I want to go with Liz to go buy her prom dress. Find one that shows off how beautiful she is inside and out.
I want to tell her that life isn't perfect, but we wouldn't be faced with challenges if we weren't ready for them.
I want to tell her to never loose her curiosity and to never let anyone change you to be more like them.
I want to tell her that she is beautiful even though she may look in the mirror someday and not like what she sees. We are so much more than our appearances.
I want to tell her that a man that only talks about what you look like is not worth your time. He will only ever see you as a piece of ass and not as a real person.
I want to tell her to find someone that sees you as an equal.
I want to tell her that she should fall in love and let your heart fall but make sure its for people that care for you the same way.
I want to tell her that love is out there and its OK to be scared about what happens when it comes along.
I want to tell her that when you are least expecting it and are at last loving yourself for you, is when you find someone that will rock your world.
I want her to know that i'll be there for her and even though we are not blood related, I will love her like she is mine even though I know Alex and Liz will do a wonderful job loving her too.



I wish I could be there for everything, but unfortunately shes 7 hours away, and I cant commute everyday.
But i'll try to be there as much as possible.

So good luck Liz and Alex.
You can do this.
And i'm here for you.
And I love you both, and especially baby Abby.
I want to be there as much as I can.