Onward

Onward.
Onward and upward.
Isn't that like how the human race runs?
Always on to something else.

Always progressing.
Always up.
Always bigger.
Always better.

But what if what you had before was something else?
Something that you loved and you didn't want to let it go and move on.
But you had to move on even thought it wasn't your choice.
Maybe you stepped to far and fell over yourself like you did when you were a child.

That is what happened to me this week.

And maybe thats why i'm so late this week with blogs.
I had to have time to process instead of just writing a rage blog about how I was mad and confused about all that happened.

I failed myself this week.

It just didn't work at one of my jobs.
Which hurts a lot because I have never been let go.
I've always quit or the job just ended because it was only for a few months.

As we know i've always been hard to love and I try way too hard.
Well that's what happened.

I just didn't quite fit.
And it caught me off guard because I thought I was safe.
I thought I was set.

Not the case.

There were tears involved and emotions ran high and dad may have accidentally called my manager.
I love that he did that.
He was protecting me.



Buts its been a week and i've picked myself up from the ashes.




Onward and upward to another job.

Thanks to my former coworkers.
You guys were the best.

I think what drives me crazy is that I don't really know the reason why.
But sometimes you don't have closure.
So I will just have to deal with that.

Tomorrow is another day.