To start anew

I never told you how I also like the beginning of the year.
Sure its cold and terrible and celebrating christmas/my birthday is all over, but it means the past year is finally behind you.
That when you reference an event that happened you have to say last year and not a few months ago. I cant say anymore that my boyfriend and I broke up a few months ago or that Bri died a few months ago. Both events were hard but they were last year and now I need to move on with my life.

Maybe being 21 and it being 2015 is a sign.

I was talking to my friend last year in December, the last day of Indy for the semester about wanting to start again. His name is Ray but everyone calls him "Smooth Ray" because he has this freakishly deep smooth voice. Like he could say "I'm going to murder you with a rusty spoon" and I still would be totally calm.

Anyways we were talking and he truly believed that 2015 would be a good year because get this all the individual numbers of 2015 so 2+1+5= 8 which I guess is a strong number. I don't know I guess it seems like strong number.

But this isn't the only time I had heard that 2015 would be my year. My parents believe it too. Well of course they would, they are my parents and they are the best thing ever. Not even joking.

Well they met when they both were 21.

My dad had just turned 21 a few weeks prior and they met at a bar because of some mutual friends. It took him a month to ask her out and 3 months later they were engaged. About a year after that they were married and here we are today. 27 years later.

So maybe I believe in fate and maybe I really do believe in happily ever after.

But 2015 feels different.
It feels more like me.

And today I felt more like an improved version of me more than I did 6 months ago.

I've realized that love doesnt come to those who wait.
I have to get out there!
Bring on zhe men!