Master of dating myself

I was going to put the title as Masturdating...

But I think mommy or mormor might be a little confused or horrified.



Yes Masturdating.
A mix of the word masturbating and dating.

As in making yourself happy whilst single.
So taking yourself out on dates, treating yourself, and being happy in your own company.
In other words you become your ideal other half.

I know its weird.
But I think in this world where everything needs to be bigger faster and better.
Why cant I just be happy meandering along looking for my love?
And loving myself.
With out stressing myself out??

I don't really have the sense of urgency to settle down and get married.
I have time.
So why rush it.

You have the rest of your life to find someone and be attached.
Why not enjoy being unattached and happy with yourself.
Not needing someone else to fill a void.

I'm filling my own void.
I am dating myself and learning to love it.

Before I would immediately catch on if I was the only single person in a group.
And I would feel alienated for it.
For no real reason other than me being insecure in my singleness.

But now I've learned that I am fine being the only single person.
I cope and for the most part the people i'm hanging around with that are not single will include and try to limit the amount of couple like actions that they do.
And I don't feel as odd.

HOWEVER
The world has this weird way that as soon as you are comfortable where you are and what you are doing, it likes to mix it all up.
So currently there are males that might be pursuing me.
And quite frankly i'm not interested in anything more than just a date and maybe some flirting.
Nothing more than that.
Unless something really hits me that is miraculous and life changing or my mentality changes to wanting a relationship then maybe something will happen.

Which is so weird for me to say no.
But here I am.

Just dating myself.
And that is perfectly fine with me for now.