The things you do for band...

So friday was an absolutely insane day because I had a presentation AND a band concert.
So I had to leave class early as per usual to get to rehearsal.
Then get dinner and put on this make up.
This was not my idea of fun.

I love make up in general.
I love putting it on.
Hell one of my favorite parts of the day is when I put on my make up.
It changes everything.

But Walters wanted the entire band in black and white ghost make up.
The. Entire. Band. In. Makeup.

Nope.

So I had to put that on and I did not enjoy putting that on on top of the make up I already had on.
Only men think its a good idea to wear crazy stage make up.

So we do the concert.
Face paint and zombie walk and all.

And I go home and I scrub all that shit off my face.

Never again Walters.
Never again.

"This is going to sound weird, but do you possibly have seashells?"

Finding seashells in a landlocked state.

Good idea to be a mermaid for Halloween.
Yes really good idea Julia Grace.

Oddly enough tiny Durango CO does have seashells.
At the fish store.
Hermit crab shells.
At the cowboy store.
Abalone.
At pier 1
Decorations.

Let me just say, trying to find them was a journey at a half.
And I'm pretty sure I cracked up half the media center whilst doing so.

Because lets be honest, a woman looking for seashells, in Durango, for a mermaid costume.

Yeah that was me.
And I'm sure some of those people I called went home later that day and said something like...

"I had the weirdest conversation today. This girl was looking for seashells for a mermaid costume. She's going to freeze her ass off I can tell you that."

Stomping

So relationships are hard.
And the older I get the more I realize that I want to spend my time with people that do something for me.
Such as making me happy or engage me in unique conversations.
They give me something that I can't find anywhere else.
And that's a quality all of my friends have.

So why would I spend time with someone that I do not connect with on multiple levels and whom I don't really enjoy?

I have no idea.

But that happened and I realized that I didn't want to go any further.
So I stopped something before it got any further.
Because I realized my time was better spent elsewhere for both parties.
We weren't that connected.
I didn't have time.
And I just wanted to move on.

And I didn't want to hurt them.
So I cut it off before it went too far.

And I think that was one of my best decisions.
Why waste time on something that doesn't make you happy.

Life is only so long.
Why waste it on something that neither person enjoys?

That's not fair for anyone.

So moral of the story.
Always pursue happiness.

recruiting

So the indy was in desperate need of staff because lets be honest our current staff is quite small.
And no one came back this semester.
And so we had less people.
So I had this genius idea to send out a mass email to professors from some other departments that might have students that would be interested.
English, History, Theatre, Business and Art.

Let me just tell you Business has more professors than all the departments combined.
And maybe 2 got back to me.

Thanks guys.

Well I sent that out.

And then realized that I had a typo in the first sentence of the email that was sent to the english professors.
And then I realized I had sent it from my msn email and not my fort lewis.
So it could have ended up in spam boxes.


But I did get some responses.
And so we did get some people into classes.
So hopefully we will have a variety of people next semester and with different talents more than communications majors.

Bossy Pants

So when I need to get something done in a group project I tend to get a bit bossy.

Okay to be honest, I get really bossy.

Like no joke.

I will try to make the entire world revolve around me.

Yeah I am that diva.




So here is the deal.
We were filming for my social media marketing class.
And I was being excessively bossy.
And indecisive.
And hyper as hell.

But somehow with all the gibberish coming out of my mouth we filmed the entire thing.
Which only needed to be 50 -70 seconds.
But we all know we went over because our group or well the 2/3rds that showed up for filming day is badass.
 That one guy. Did not show up.

And that other guy was so freaking helpful.
Like we became buds.
It was so good.

"You have sushi, RIGHT?!"

So the roommate and I finally had our schedules open up enough that we could finally go on a sushi date.
These happened a lot more last year but this year they have been less and less because we are just both extremely busy.
Its not so good.
So we finally found a spare hour or so to spend together and eat food.

WELL it started out okay.
And then we got hangry

So our favorite spot Rice Monkey we had to wait for.
And we waited for like 40 minutes for a table.
And then we went back to check and found out they were out of sushi.

So I just went NOPE AND WALKED MY HAPPY LITTLE ASS OUT THE DOOR.
I  usually am more polite than that but we were hungry.
And I was damn determined to find some sushi.
Because it was our sushi date night.
And we cant have that with out sushi.

So we headed to East by Southwest.
Which we've never been to together.
But what the heck, were branching out.

So we walk in and with a crazy look in my eye I look the lady in the eye and say "you have sushi RIGHT?!"
And she answers yes.

We get seated.
Order a crap ton of food.
Eat all of it.
Then find out we get cotton candy too.
And then I am literally the happiest person ever.

So the moral of the story is, don't mess with me when i'm hungry.
Or i might just end up eating you.

I don't have to set an alarm

SQUEEEEEE
Like you have no idea how great it is to just wake up naturally.
Not to some random radio station or to some screeching or because you just woke up because you were worried about something.

But to just sleep.
And then wake up with the sun.
And then stretch your arms to the sky like a disney princess.
And then fall back asleep for like the next few hours.

So damn good.

Because I always have to set an alarm to wake up for school or for work or to go into do something for school.
So I never get a lazy saturday morning and that particular day I did.
And I literally was so excited to just sleep and sleep and sleep.
Because I am old and I love sleep like more than anything else.
Unless its cheese.
Then I love cheese as much as sleep.

To tell you i'm sorry for breaking your heart

ADELE
OH MY GOODNESS
The entire world cried ugly tears the day she released her new single Hello.
And then even more when the entire album came out.

Being a musician I can recognize unique tambours in a voice.
She certainly has a special one.
A tambour is a type of sound.
Like the different type of sound that a clarinet makes versus a trumpet.
One is soft and warm, the other is brighter.

Its not the range but the sheen of the sound if that makes sense.

ANYWAYS
I listened to Hello probably a dozen times that particular day.

Because it just connected with me as it did with pretty much every single person.

A love that just slipped through your fingers and the residual aftermath that you have to deal with.

When its your fault.

I've felt this way before. Like it was all my fault. Like everything you did just feel to pieces.
Utter guilt.

And i've been on the other end.
I've been the one whos heart has been broken and not picking up the phone.

So it showed me that both sides of what i've dealt with were normal.
That maybe somewhere in my crazy workings of a brain, it wasnt so discombobulated because someone else has done and gone through the same things.

It connected to me and I felt like a piece of my soul that had been dormant for a while had awakened.
So good.
So soulful.
We missed you Adele.

Never ever ever leave us again.
Love the world

Group work

I kind of really hate group work.
Because the type of people that you can get stuck with always varies.
Like you could have a bunch of overachievers that all work together nicely.
Or a bunch of slackers and so now you have to do all the work.
Or someone that just takes over the entire thing for no real reason other than they are a control freak.

So anyways,
I was blessed into a group project with a mix of members.
One was wonderful and hard working and flexible with what we needed to get done. Always there, always on time, dependable as hell.
The other was the exact opposite.
And that never sits well with me.

Laziness when other people's grades are involved.
Not okay to slack off.

So anyways, the non-slacker and I became friends.
Planned and shot the entire project.
Edited the thing and got to know each other.

The other guy,
Hardly there.
Hard to get ahold off.
Did barely any.
And then was critical of our work.

Like maybe if you showed up I wouldnt be cranky.

Thats just me.

Moral of the story.
Be kind and work together.
You dont have to be the person that takes over the project.
Just be good at communicating and trusting your team until proven otherwise.
Then make sure you have a good back up plan.

88 mph

So October 21st 2015 was the day that back to the future went to.

And in some ways we are like the movie and some we are not.

Its weird to think that we are now living in the "future".

And yet we still haven't figured out how to not destroy the environment.

How to have equality between the genders.

How not to piss off everyone with our bull headedness.

And how the hell Donald Trump is somehow in the race for president.

A position he has no experience for.

How has the future come to having an arrogant man as a possible contender for the next leader of the new world.

It is 2015.

I remember when it turned 2000 and thought that was cool.

How crazy is it that its been 15 years since then.

Hello to the world of social media.

To the use of phrases such as Bae and On Fleek

To having to argue female reproductive rights.

To actually having people that thingk the movie the Martian actually was a real event.

What has our society come to?

We've progressed but we still have far to go.

Lets hope the future is brighter than what we see now.

rainbow colored sprinkles

So as we all know, I'm a bit of a small child at times

And I like sugar a lot.

Sometimes I can seriously resemble the female version of Buddy the Elf.
It's not cute.

Well this particular day there was a genius and I mean GENIUS  fundraiser going on .

Freshly dipped caramel apples.
Holy baby Jesus I nearly died.

And they were only 2 dollars.

And so not only was the caramel still warm but you could then choose the toppings.
And I got graham crackers and get this.
Rainbow colored sprinkles.

Shocker

But seriously it made my day as I was gnawing away at that thing.
Too damn good.

So if you ever want to make me randomly happy.
Just cover it in rainbow colored sprinkles.

Tall enough

We all know i'm tall.
Hello 70 inches of woman right here.

So WHY THE HECK DO I EVER WEAR HEELS?!?
I always do this.
I wear heels and then regret it.

Well today it was these really high heeled boots that are occasionally nicknamed
THE stripper boots.

Theyre not actually but dad thought they looked like stripper boots so it has unfortunately stuck.

And I wanted to mix up my style because its durango and we do that.
No we dont.
That is a lie.

So I wore heels.
And immediately regretted it.
Because I'm pretty sure I flashed a few people because I thought wearing a high waisted skirt was a great idea too...
Bad life choices.

There's actually a video of me and regretting my decisions.
Its pretty funny.

So long story short.
It's durango.
I dont need heels.
I already stick out I dont need any more reasons to be even more of an anomaly in this town.

So there.
Flat shoes it is.

Not too long now

I always hate Sundays.
Especially when my family is visiting.
Because its the day they go home.

And I just feel this emptiness when they are gone.
Like I'm the missing piece left behind.
We headed up to honeyville as per usual to get our fix of honey items.
Drank some mead.

And I just remember how good of people my parents are.
How compassionately they love

And how much I miss them.

Whenever they leave mom always says "not too long now until we see you"
And we always cry.
No matter how old I am and no matter how many times we do it I still cry.
I hate when the pull away and I see how truly far away I am.

They are not just around the corner.
We are hours upon hours away from each other.

But then I realize its okay.
This is part of growing up.
And being an adult.

You learn to be alone and stand as you grow up.
And its not as hard each time.
But its still hard.
And that means we still care.
And that they are still my world.

So not too long until i'm home.

We're not prepared for this hike...

So we decided to head out that morning and go to Mesa Verde.
Not before we first stopped by the farmers market and go THE MOST DELICIOUS CHEESE IN THE HISTORY OF THE WORLD
There was cumin in it.

So stinking good.
Like I was more excited about the cumin cheese than really anything else.

So we head off.
And go to a couple places
And then we stop for lunch and I get way too excited about eating the nutty cumin cheese really than I should be.

And then we decide to go hike down to cliff palace and on our way back we see a hike that jets off to some pictographs.

Not really thinking and with out proper footwear, a map or any real idea what we are in for and how long this hike is, we set out.
Because that is a smart idea.

So we go for a while over hill over dale.
And then we start to question how long this is going to take.
Since we are sans water.
And the weather is starting to turn.
So we go a bit further and then decide to head back.

When we get back we find its a few mile loop and they reccommend that you dont go out with out proper footwear, water and some idea of what you are in for,

yeah we should have read that sign...

Well later we get home and have a lovely evening and it was so good to just be by myself with my parents because I never get that.
I was an only child for a little bit.
And it was great.

STRONG DRINKS

THE PARENTAL UNITS CAME INTO TO TOWN AND IT WAS THE BEST DAY EVER!
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!

Like I came out of my last class and they were driving into the parking lot.
I was so excited to see them.
You don't realize how much you miss them until its been some time and you just really need a hug.

And then here they are just driving up to me.
So we went back to my place, made dinner and then decided to head out for dessert.
So of course we had to go to Gardenswartz because dad just has to go look at water bottles.
And then we found a place to get drinks and dessert.

Eolus.

Also saw Diego at El Moro.

But we got in ordered drinks that we found wer a bit strong.
Very strong.
And oh hot donuts too.
Those were damn good.

And then we went home and snuggled.
And I was so happy.

That wasn't Aaron....

So I swear I saw my friend Aaron Tomaselli walking past the media center on that particular day.
Now just as some context.
Aaron and Lane lived next to Hallie and I sophomore year and we all became great friends.
And I stayed friends with them after all the craziness of last year.
And I don't get to see them very often because they are busy little enginerds and hardly ever go out and just don't have time.

But I swear I saw Aaron.
He had the same hair.
Same gait.
Same long board.
Same sort of long board.
Similar face.

Wasn't him.

I ran through the back door of the media center.
Turn the corner and yelled AARON!
Wasn't him.
He turned around,
I just said, crap youre not him.
And ran back to the back door.

And hid my head,
Because I was that girl...

Nothing can ruin my day today

So that Wednesday was just a particularly good day.

For some odd reason.

And I literally could not get in a bad mood.

Which is really weird because I can get set off by just about anything.

And that day I was exceptionally happy.

For some crazy reason.

Like I had to present my video in my video class and it was less than stellar.

It had been thrown together.

And it wasnt that good.

But I took everything with a grain of salt.

And it was okay.

I don't know.

I just had an oddly good day.